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Can you ever love me for me?
For the me that is true….
Can you love me with my imperfections?
Can you see me as I am and not as what you want me to be?

Can you ever love me for me?
For the me that makes mistakes and speaks without thinking
Can you love me even when I am unreasonable?
Can you see me as I am and not for the Angel you seek?

Can you ever love me for me?
For the me that cries when a strangers child is hurt..
Can you love me when I am sad without me having a reason to be?
Can you see me as I am not as what I once was….

Can you ever love me for me?

Once upon a time, a long time ago, I fell in love. And there was laughter and whispers of happiness. There was much rejoicing. And then, SHUT! Over. Gone. Dead. Completely cut off. Disconnected. The taste still fresh in my mouth.. The smell still on my skin.. The feeling left in my fingertips.. But I don’t seem to recall that feeling back..

I may spend my entire life trying to get back into that Polaroid. Fighting all the way. The best thing I have ever known.. Even now, years later, anytime I come close to it I want to dive in. Sink or swim. I don’t care. I would give anything to be even in the room next to it… LOVE! Across the street.. A breath away.. Remembering what I never let myself forget.!

Why try to keep her where she doesn’t want to be there? There were nights I cried. When we were together and then I sent her home and on the way home I cried. Not because I was sad, or I was already missing her, but because I was happy. So happy I couldn’t contain myself. I talked to God. I asked him for a direction.. A direction since here I was standing at the crossroads…

Did she feel what I felt? No one will have those dark brown eyes. No one will have that one lock of hair hiding all her secrets. And no one, ever again (shudder) will make me whole. I’m so scared. What if it is real? What if I never fall in LOVE again? I see little pieces of it everywhere. A glance, a smile, a touch. I feel desperate. I feel alone.. So much out there. But I only want to hear one thing.. but sadly I do not know what it is!! If I ever get the chance again. I will stretch out my fingers, grasp it tightly, and NEVER LET IT GO! But till then; I will be here, with my open hand and my desperate heart and my cold and wretched skin….

Slowly, regrettably, forgetting just enough that I can survive from one day to the next. To remember is to suffer. To see what was and then look at what is. To hear her voice, makes my heart stop. She can be almost anyone. She can read me like a book. I will open my page to anyone. Cover to cover. Nothing to hide. Not the fear, the pain, or the hopelessness. It is all there. Large print ; easy to read. Secrets dissolve in tears. I was lost and now I’m found. I was blind but now I see. Maybe I don’t want to….. SEE AGAIN!!!

Happy Valentines Day to each of you who took the time and trouble to read this lil thing.. Cherish each and every moment in your life with those who mean the world to you.. for tomorrow you maY wake up to find that the special someone is missing from the whole sphere of your life… Love like you have never before and Live like you are going to DIE tomorrow..

HuGsz,

ReUBeN

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can’t do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it’s the realization I can’t control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it’s to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it’s to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

The swing I sat on when I was five
Gave me the greatest pleasure
I knew happiness as I swung
Thinking life was leisure
And the wind rushing against my face
Promised that it would last
Now I smile ruefully
When I remember that swing from my past.

Life is cruel just as it is kind,
And to be kind it needs to be cruel;
Love, happiness, honour and beauty
Are trapped in this unceasing duel.
I used to love with abandon,
Now caution dictates my every move
In matters of life
In matters of love.

I still wear my heart on my sleeve,
Though I try harder to shield it,
I have sharpened my brain with experience,
And I have learnt to wield it.
Years have passed and are passing still,
I have lost those I loved and some have lost me,
I have been touched and have been bruised,
Each caress and weal I have stored in memory.

You see a part of me now,
Perhaps I shall let you see the other sides of me,
Perhaps you’ll see the boy, with the wind on that swing,
Perhaps the present or some future destiny;
Through all of your judgement know this:
Disregarding every shred of vanity,
You never did, never will or hope to know,
Another individual quite like me.

Take this quiz:
Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest.
Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer prize.
Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor and actress.
Name the last decade’s worth of World Series winners.
How did you do? The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.

Here’s another quiz. See how you do on this one:
List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you.
Easier? The lesson? The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards.

They are the ones that care, and you know that from deep down in my heart, I care for you very much.

Remember, your words, your dreams, and
your thoughts have the power to create
conditions in your life. What you
speak about, you can bring about.

If you keep saying you can’t stand
your job,
you might lose your job.

If you keep saying you can’t stand
your body,
your body can become sick.

If you keep saying you can’t stand
your car,
your car could be stolen or just stop
operating.

If you keep saying you’re always
broke, guess what?
You’ll always be broke.

If you keep saying you can’t trust a
man or trust a woman,
you will always find someone in your
life to hurt and betray you.

If you keep saying you can’t find a
job,
you will remain unemployed.

If you keep saying you can’t find
someone
to love you or believe in you,
our very thoughts will attract more
experiences to confirm your beliefs.

Turn your thoughts and conversations
around to be more positive
and power packed with faith, hope,
love and action.

Don’t be afraid to believe that you can
have what you want and deserve.

Watch your "Thoughts,"
they become words;

Watch your "Words,"
they become actions;

Watch your "Actions,"
they become habits;

Watch your "Habits,"
they become character;

Watch your "Character",
for it becomes your "Destiny"

So…….to prevent any
obstacles… ….

GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!

Letter From Jesus

Dear loved ones,

As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated. During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.

It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration. Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don’t know the meaning of the celebration.

I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many  beautifully wrapped gifts. But, do you want to know something? I wasn’t invited. I was the guest of honor and they didn’t remember to send me an invitation. The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door in my face …. and I wanted to be with them and share their table.

In truth, that didn’t surprise me because in the last few years all close their doors to me. Since I wasn’t invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner. They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time. To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa Claus" .. as if the party were in his honor!

At 12 Midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and … do you know … no one hugged me. Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with  great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me.

What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one? I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.

Every year it gets worse. People only remember to eat and drink, the gifts, the parties and nobody remembers me. I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life. I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you. Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart.

I want to share something with you. As many didn’t invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party.

I’m still making the final arrangements. Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. Those who don’t answer the invite, will be left outside.

Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.

See you soon.

I Love you!

Jesus

I wanna make you smile
Whenever you’re sad-
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do-
Is grow old with you-

I’ll get you medicine
When your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
It would be so nice,
Growin’ old with you-

I’ll miss you, kiss you-
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you, feed you.-
I’ll even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in the kitchen sink-
Put you to bed when you’ve had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man-
Who grows old with you… I wanna grow old with you

*oh god, let me be with someone like tht!**

HugsZzZZzZzZzzZzzZzZZzZzzZSsssss!!!!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring t he relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.